Ich hasse diese Welt.

Don't

You don't know me. You don't know my musical tastes. You don't know my dreams and aspirations. You don't know my favorite foods, books, holidays, or movies. You don't know what I look like when I get up in the morning, you don't know the temperature I like my shower, you don't know what I hate about myself or what bothers me most. You don't know my favorite colour, my pet peeves, my hope and fears. You don't know what I bank on and what makes me cry. You don't know how strange I am or what I really think of you. All you know is what you see.

Sometimes...

I love the fact that I can be a bitch. Convo with (what I originally thought) Jeff Blaisdell. For my own personal use.

jblais1231 (7:28:41 PM): hey was up
Placebd Wrld (7:28:55 PM): Nothing...
jblais1231 (7:29:00 PM): long time no talk
Placebd Wrld (7:29:01 PM): I thought you hated me...
Placebd Wrld (7:29:08 PM): I am incredaconfused.
jblais1231 (7:29:20 PM): i still do
Placebd Wrld (7:29:28 PM): Then why are you talking to me?
jblais1231 (7:29:45 PM): ummm cause i'm bored
jblais1231 (7:30:08 PM): so i got a ?
Placebd Wrld (7:30:13 PM): I'm going to once again apologise, though I think it makes no difference to you.
Placebd Wrld (7:30:15 PM): Go ahead.
jblais1231 (7:31:01 PM): what was the actual reason we broke up
Placebd Wrld (7:31:14 PM): Honestly, I got really busy.
Placebd Wrld (7:31:20 PM): And stayed busy.
jblais1231 (7:31:38 PM): hmmm well you coulda told me
Placebd Wrld (7:31:41 PM): Then I did the stupid thing and never actually ended things.
Placebd Wrld (7:31:55 PM): I know. Occassionally I suck at the communication thing.
jblais1231 (7:31:58 PM): damn straight you did
jblais1231 (7:32:35 PM): well w/e its in the past who cares
Placebd Wrld (7:32:42 PM): Wow. Okay.
Placebd Wrld (7:32:51 PM): Well I'm glad you're big enough to move on.
Placebd Wrld (7:33:13 PM): If the roles were reversed, I wouldn't be talking.
jblais1231 (7:33:43 PM): i've benn moving on i've actually had about 3 girlfriends now
Placebd Wrld (7:33:50 PM): Good!
Placebd Wrld (7:33:54 PM): I'm glad!
jblais1231 (7:34:09 PM): i guess
jblais1231 (7:34:25 PM): so i got another ?
Placebd Wrld (7:34:31 PM): Go ahead.
jblais1231 (7:34:51 PM): so are you still a "motorcycle"
Placebd Wrld (7:35:05 PM): I don't believe I follow you.
jblais1231 (7:35:48 PM): think about motorcycle everyone gets a ride which i still think that was the reason you stopped talking to me
Placebd Wrld (7:36:19 PM): *blink blink* I am utterly insulted. Thank you.
jblais1231 (7:36:49 PM): well thats what i thought come on you just up and left i felt pretty insulted myself
Placebd Wrld (7:37:07 PM): Look I understand that I fucked up. Right, I got that, but IMing me to insult me is not a good way to go.
jblais1231 (7:37:48 PM): ok i am sorry bout that but can i tell you one thing and its not insulting i promise
Placebd Wrld (7:37:53 PM): Sure.
jblais1231 (7:38:12 PM): this is one of his good friends jus looking out for him
Placebd Wrld (7:38:30 PM): So this isnae Jeff?
jblais1231 (7:38:43 PM): nope
Placebd Wrld (7:38:46 PM): Okay.
Placebd Wrld (7:38:53 PM): Go ahead.
jblais1231 (7:39:18 PM): i'm jus lookin out for him and i just wanted to hear it from you thats all i'm at his house hes sitting on the couch
Placebd Wrld (7:39:30 PM): Does he know you're talking to me?
jblais1231 (7:39:38 PM): yup
Placebd Wrld (7:39:48 PM): How does he feel about this?
jblais1231 (7:40:14 PM): he says how is he suppost to feel
jblais1231 (7:40:24 PM): he said he finds it kinda funny
Placebd Wrld (7:40:49 PM): I know he's hurt and/or angry.
Placebd Wrld (7:40:55 PM): I'm not stupid.
Placebd Wrld (7:41:07 PM): I may be, at times inconsiderate, but I'm not dumb.
jblais1231 (7:41:36 PM): then you shoulda told him
Placebd Wrld (7:42:26 PM): Right, when he's hating me and giving me the cold shoulder, I'm sure that would've gone well.
jblais1231 (7:43:12 PM): how many times have you called him just to say hi or leave a message saying whats up
jblais1231 (7:43:17 PM): hmm hmmm
Placebd Wrld (7:43:29 PM): None. Are we forgetting that he hates me.
jblais1231 (7:43:58 PM): no i know he hates you but whos fault was that
Placebd Wrld (7:44:14 PM): I'm not saying it's not!
jblais1231 (7:45:34 PM): ok but still its really no ones fault but you still crushed his heart
Placebd Wrld (7:46:03 PM): Holy hell. I know this. I do feel bad, though I'm sure you think I'm just a cold heartless bitch.
Placebd Wrld (7:46:27 PM): There's another reason why I never made an attempt to contact him.
Placebd Wrld (7:46:31 PM): I felt/feel terrible.
Placebd Wrld (7:46:56 PM): I suck. I'm a worthless, bitch of a human fucking being, what more do you want from me?
jblais1231 (7:47:00 PM): yea in a way i do but i dont really know you personally only know you from jeff......what was the other reason?
Placebd Wrld (7:47:11 PM): I felt bad.
jblais1231 (7:48:25 PM): well damn you came out with the truth at least your not denying it w/e it goes how it goes
Placebd Wrld (7:49:08 PM): Alright I'm done groveling. If I shut myself down, it's one thing, but I'd prefer you not agree with me, kthanks.
jblais1231 (7:49:58 PM): well w/e i'm just looking out for him
Placebd Wrld (7:50:10 PM): How is insulting me looking out for him?
Placebd Wrld (7:50:21 PM): It's in the past, as you've said before.
Placebd Wrld (7:50:27 PM): And obviously before you.
Placebd Wrld (7:50:49 PM): If I were attempting to contact him it'd be one thing, but you are seeking me out.
jblais1231 (7:51:26 PM): ok you shut me up damn
Placebd Wrld (7:51:45 PM): Yeah.
Placebd Wrld (7:52:15 PM): So if Jeff wants to contact me, feel free. I will grovel to him. But other than that I do believe we're done here.
jblais1231 (7:53:02 PM): alrighty then
Placebd Wrld (7:53:05 PM): Ta.
jblais1231 (7:53:21 PM): taa ta
jblais1231 is away at 7:56:12 PM.