Breakdown

Why always with the happy, sad, happy, sad? The flat is quiet. I'm not even in a music mood. I haven't been in a few days. I think I just keep playing it so I don't have to hear my thoughts. Why am I this unhappy? Why am I sobbing? I feel ridiculous. I am sitting here sobbing. I can barely make out the words on the screen. I pray that I am not making a mistake. Or if I am that it's fixable.
I need to be fixed. I've no idea what's wrong with me.
I want to sleep.
I envy the weak people that can kill themselves.

I thought I was on the path to being a ska kid again and instead it forked and I took the emo road.