Wow

So much has changed in the past two days it's ridiculous. Everyone thinks I'm nuts. I think I'm finally going to be happy. I'm not happy. I cry more than I have in a long time. I find myself crying over the dumbest things. It's taken me too long to realise this. I am quitting college, for the time being. I'm not ready for it. I'm not ready for more school. I started talking about how unhappy I was and started thinking about what it was I really wanted to do. The answer was quite obvious once I thought about it; Travel. So travel I shall. I applied at...five websites to be an au pair.
au pair: (ô pâr)
n.

A young foreigner who does domestic work for a family in exchange for room and board and a chance to learn the family's language.

I asked mostly for Germany and France. I put in a request or two for New Zealand, not that I think that'll happen. That'd be too nice.
Within the first half hour of applying at these sites I received two phone calls from au pair agencies in Germany. Both sound very promising. I am excited. The pay isn't bad. About what I'm making now. Free room and board, food and...adventure. Most families say that I would work five days/week. A few of them said that, providing I have a driver's license, I would have use of the family car. Not that I think that I'd need it if I were in a big city. There would be light housework involved, possibly caring for pets and simple meals. Mum doesn't seem too thrilled. Dave is very happy for me. And everyone else thinks that I've lost it and no one understands why I want out so much. Honestly, I'm not sure I know why I want out so much, but I do. I want to see everything I can. I want to tell Nathan. I really wish I could've talked with him last night, but C'est la vie, non?

Wish me luck.